Getting silent treatments can make me go numb, but not until I watched myself detaching from unread messages.
How I missed laughing so loud from simple jokes, where I tend to hit someone out of too much fun, how I missed the days when I did not need to squeeze juices of my heart just to feel something, and how I can easily join inside a circle.
Am I the problem? Or has the modern world just changed how I should act and perceive things?
My old version would be so sad to see me forcing stuff to be the same again. But then, I remembered that the only constant thing is change, and for the first time, I appreciated this transition.
I no longer teach myself how to fit in someone else’s standards. I stopped begging for what I do not deserve. I stood up and remove my chair from a table where I do not belong.
My petals shouldn’t be tangled from a flower that someone else picked up; I should bloom with an up-to-date seed inside my own garden and adapt a new tone of vibes…
Maturing is realizing that our old vibes are thanking our current energy for saving us a lot.
